On Black Death and grieving modalities
Our deaths, even in private, are suggestions of what we deserve. And they are always in relationship with the state.
Like most Black folks, the intentional and subliminal external messaging I received growing up were variations of me being unlovable, inadequate, and too much.
For those of us survivors whose bodies revolt, it’s not just that we are experiencing random medicalized dysfunctions. We are reacting to the toxicity surrounding us.
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